I’ve been feeling uninspired when it comes to blogging for quite some time now and on Sunday I wrote this post when I was feeling particularly down about it. After sleeping on it I’m not feeling quite as ‘omg I’m going to stop blogging wahhh’ but I still wanted to share how I was feeling towards it for anyone else out there who might be struggling.
I’ve been blogging here since August 2014.
My early blog posts are raw, were posted whenever I felt like it and usually had images borrowed from Google. I had no inkling of what a ‘blog’ was, I was just writing for something to do whilst counting down the days until I left for Australia.
When I was in Australia my blog became a travel diary, somewhere to share my photos and show my family back home what I had been doing. I was almost home when I realised what a lucrative business blogging is and that’s when I started to take notice of what other people were doing and tried to up my game.
Once I was home I struggled with my blogging identity – It’s pretty hard to be a travel blogger when you aren’t travelling! That’s when I started to veer towards creating lifestyle content and since then my blog has had a couple of redesigns and I’ve even moved from Blogger to WordPress.
I’ve had a few cool opportunities appear due to this here blog but recently the sparkle has started to fade and my passion for it has started to dim. I’ve let my schedule slip, I haven’t dedicated my weekends to making sure there are three posts ready to go for the week ahead and I’ve barely opened my MacBook.
So many people who started blogging around the same time as I did have seen their blogs catapult beyond their wildest dreams. They’ve earned money through their blog, they’ve worked with some awesome brands and they’ve built up their own little communities within the blogosphere.
But I’m still plodding along, not much further along than I was when I first started out.
What started out as a bit of fun, isn’t that fun anymore.
And I know it shouldn’t be about the money, the brand ops or the followers/engagement but when you put your all into something and it feels like you get nothing back then it can be pretty disheartening.
Maybe I should have shown my face more, maybe I should have gotten more involved on Twitter, maybe I should have tried harder with my photography, maybe my writing is, quite simply, crap.
Maybe, maybe, maybe.
With a lack of inspiration and motivation, I don’t know what the future holds for Alright Blondie.
Am I going to stick it out and keep going because it’s the longest I’ve ever stuck at anything and it’s my main creative outlet?
Or am I going to let it gather dust, eventually forgetting about it and all the memories that it holds?
I’m not too sure to be honest.
All I know is that I can’t keep up. I can’t keep up with the beautiful imagery (both flat lays and street style), I can’t keep up with the well crafted think pieces and I certainly can’t keep up with the constant use of social media to promote, engage, promote, engage.
It’s not as easy as writing a few words and using a stock image anymore, you have to consider ISO, natural lighting, flatlays, your USP, SEO, relatable captions, domain authority, micro blogging, follower count, analytics, props, self hosted fees, networking, marketing, self promotion…Doing all of that is like having another full time job alongside my other full time job! Work, making sure my relationship is healthy, socialising with friends and family, looking after my dog and running a house keep me busy enough, never mind all of the above.
So where does that leave me?
Well I don’t have any content planned for the next couple of weeks and I’m unsure if there will be any new posts published during that time at all. I suppose it depends if I get inspired by anything or the spark magically comes back. I don’t want to say goodbye to my blog after three and a half years of working so hard on it but seeing other people succeed when my blog is going nowhere leaves me feeling pretty ambivalent towards it.
Like I said, I dunno.
I guess I’ll just have to hope this wave passes and see what happens on the other side.
That being said, I still love devouring other peoples words and absorbing their imagery (even if I am a little bit jealous). I don’t think that will ever go away as reading the words of people from all over the world, of all ages, of all colours, of all sizes has really educated me and opened up my eyes to the ways of the world. These people got me interested in politics, they inspired me to use my voice and they inspire me in everything I do.
So even if I’m saying goodbye to my blog, I certainly won’t be saying goodbye to other peoples just yet.
So as you can see I was feeling particularly sorry for myself on Sunday. I’m not going to stop blogging all together but I’ve cleared my schedule for the month and taking some time away from it all. If I feel like blogging I will, but if I don’t, I won’t. Simple really.