Life Lately: I’ve got a new job…And I’m absolutely terrified.

Life Lately: I’ve got a new job…And I’m absolutely terrified.


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So I’ve been keeping something under my hat, in real life, on my blog and on social media…I’ve got a new job!

Before I go on here’s a little bit of background on my current role: I’ve worked there three times now: For a year and a half in 2012/13 (I left due to redundancy), four months in 2014 (I left to go travelling) and my third stint started a month after I returned home from Thailand. I work with a great team of people and the management are easy going but I’ve been feeling a bit deflated and uninspired by it for quite some time now.

So I decided to start looking for something new.

I wasn’t desperately searching for a new job though – like I said I work with some great people and wasn’t in any great rush to leave – I was just applying every now and again (maybe one application a month?) when I found a job role that looked like something I would enjoy.

After a few months of idle searching I went for a couple of interviews with a company that is literally down the road from my house and lo and behold, they got in touch to offer me the job role. It’s a lot more varied than the one I’m in now and I’ll be doing a little bit of everything – admin, HR, basic accounts…but the big draw? They’re considering moving payroll in house and wondered if that would be something I would be interested in doing (Answer? Yes, yes I would).

Basically this new job offers more variety and a hell of a lot more opportunity than the one I am currently in.

Handing in my notice was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. I do really like my manager and she seemed genuinely upset that I’d decided to leave the company…But she understood my need and desire to grow.

I went home feeling like a weight had been lifted from my chest and on the 13th of October I will be leaving the office for the final time and probably won’t be going back again. The following Monday I will start my new venture and who knows where that will take me.

As the title suggests I’m actually quite scared to start a new chapter in my career (And it doesn’t help that I keep having dreams (nightmares??) that I hate my new job and wish I’d never left my old one). I’m swapping an office full of people (there’s around thirty of us!) that I’ve known for years for one with three strangers. I’m super confident when it comes to my current role but this new one? It’s a whole new industry that I know next to nothing about – I’m starting at the bottom of the ladder and have to work my way up.

It’s terrifying to think about really but I’m excited at the same time. I don’t really have to push myself at my current place of work anymore so I’m looking forward to blowing the dust off my brain and having to really challenge myself.

I’m nervous, I’m shitting myself and I have no idea what’s going to happen over the next few months…But I kind of can’t wait. Have you ever handed your notice in then started to doubt your decision? Did you give in to your fear or did you power through?
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4 responses to “Life Lately: I’ve got a new job…And I’m absolutely terrified.”

  1. woo! gratz!

    Change … everyone is always wary of change. But if in your how head it feels the right thing to do, then I am sure you will make sure it will be 🙂

    I’ve chosen to take redundancy from my workplace – no idea if that’s going to work for me or not but I guess you never know until you try …

    • Alrightblondie says:

      Yeah, I think I’ll be fine it’s just a big change! I’ve worked here on and off for so long it’s weird thinking I won’t be coming back again! Oh wow, how come you decided to take redundancy? Just the right time?

  2. nat says:

    Congrats on the new job! That is awesome that the office is so close to home. Don’t worry, the anxiety is completely normal – not knowing the unknown. But I am sure you will get into the swing of things in a month or so.

    I was very hesitant to hand in my notice (even to accept the job offer) but just remember your original desire to look for something different. Definitely power through! Anyways you can always hang out with your soon to be former colleagues outside of the office!

    • Alrightblondie says:

      Thank you so much for such a reassuring comment 🙂 I’m sure I will be fine I think it’s natural that I’m second guessing myself xx

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